Lazy Breezy in Hawaii!!!

So I am the worst. It's been weeks since I updated. But Janelly you've been so good! Life looks like so much fun for you and all the kids. You have such a cute family and you are so fun and creative! My latest news is that I got the carpets cleaned in my gross apartment. Well Not so gross anymore! I cleaned it up pretty good but I can't wait to not have roommates and take a break and live alone. Well then I guess the kids will come so then I'll have to deal with it all over again. At least I've had some practice with the patience, But I;ll be able to yell at my kids and make them put there own crap away. Can't do that so much with roommates! haha. But things are good otherwise.

Work has been crazy busy and I'm afraid I got a little burned. But I had Wednesday off and Today. Plus I treated myself to a massage and a facial on Thursday. Those were nice. I worked over 70 hours last payperiod (two weeks) and I think in that I did 35+ massages. So I was due for one. But it'll be worth it since I didn't get paid while I was out of town! Yeah I have less that one hundred dollars in my account right now. it's pretty much the worst feeling thinking checks are gonna bounce if I don't deposit my check on Monday! but I am gonna have to run because the bank closes at 4 and I don't finish till 3! and I live 30 min away but traffic can add 20 min! it's gonna be a close call.

You'll bee excited about this one. Bopper and I were talking about what we want in our relationship and I expressed how I want to move home really bad. And he's willing to come with me! He wants to visit for sure first but were coming in May so it'll still be cool right? And then we probably won't come till after the summer so he won't have to feel it. But I keep those thoughts to myself. He hates the heat. he sweats way too much! But just that we are talking about the " m" word makes me so happy. But he also said give him some time before he "runs off to become a mormon" haha. I thought it was cute. But he is really showing an effort to be better and start learning. I don't think that process can really happen till were on the mainland. It's just too hard here. I know that sound lame but it's true. The spirit that I felt when I was home in Thatcher is so much different than out here.

More news you are going to love Janelly! I have been starting up again on singing. I really want to get back to the mainland so I can get an agent and start getting serious about it! yeah! I'll write more on this later.

Well I'm going to sleepies because unfortunately I work tomorrow. Have a nice Sunday. And say Hi to the Kiddies for me. oh and did Mark like hiss candy I brought?
goodnight.
Breezy

I know I am so lame!

It's been over a month and I havent blogged anything! how sad. But Things are going well i suppose. I had a really wonderful trip home to see my family and I met my wonderful boyfriends family and they were awesome! And now it's Christmas eve and I am excited. I do wish I was home with my family though. But I'll see them soon I hope. Anyways I am gonna go rest I worked hard today and I have to work hard tomorrow.

Ju Jitsu!

I went to Ju Jitsu class last night and it was so fun!!! I'm pretty fighsty! haha. But man I am sore! Plus Yesterday I went surfing with Bopper and Jim at "the spot" and it sucked! Kicked my butt, scary, huge not my favorite day in the water. I paddled like crazy toget out passed the mean shore break and then trying to get into these waves was impossible! I need a new surf board is my problem. Thats what I asked bopper for Christmas! beside the fact that I'm going to PA with him and he's gonna take care of me there, I feel like I'm so needy sometimes! I think I'm too independent sometimes and It's good to let someone do things for you.

So I got this client at the spa. She's has a ton of health problems, She had a Brain Tumor, Has a metal bar replacing her Rt. Femur from a car accident, Arthritis in her hip, And Sciatica.!!!! She's a mess. Plus she has vicodine when she wants it and I think she's been on pain meds since the cancer so maybe thirty + yrs on pain meds. But she absolutley loves me! I guess she's been coming to the spa for years and she's been with all the therapists. But I am the only one that she's ever requested to have a second time! And not just one more but I believe she booked seven more with me for the remainder of her trip which is up to the day before my trip! And so that means my prayers were answered! She gets a two hour hot stone massage Which is already $240 bucks! And she tips me on top! Today it was 35 extra! Do the math! 8 massages! times 300! She's loaded! And she doesn't just get massages she gets her hair done and nails and pedicures, waxing! and a facial! She's awesome! That's how I'd spend my money if I had tons of it too! Well first I'd take care of my debt and go to nursing school! But then It would be Spa day four times a month. And she was a high school french teacher?? for 24 years half at two different schools. Maybe the Ten year thing? But she told me she thinks I should be a doctor! And I told her I want to go to nursing school I just can't work and Afford it . Maybe she'll hook me up one day! She's already told me she's coming back in April for a month and She's going to book me up again! Such a blessing. But her massages are not easy! I have to help her every step of the way due to all of the health problems she needs a wheel chair right now and then a walker for short distances. But I help pick her legs up on the table and I undress her and the last two massages she's needed to go to the bathroom half way through! So I have to redress her then undress her again. And she's not a small woman like 68 yrs old , and she's in a lot of pain too. But we are going to get her using only the walker by the end of her trip I told her. I love working with a repeat client like this. Cause I see real results from something that I do with my hands! I feel very blessed to have this talent of healing and helping people feel better. Anyways I love her already and I can't wait to she her again.

Hey let me know what you think of my blog Janelly! I've been working hard on it lately. It's what I do on my days off! haha.

Why !

How come some mornings you wake up and you are in a good mood and then others you wake up in a bad mood? And then even sometimes I wake uo happy and someone makes me mad with just a look or an unspoken word that I want or any of thise rediculous reasons? I don't know if anyone out there that may happen to read this knows anything about dreams and what happens to our mind and mood while we sleep but I'd love to know why I go to sleep super happy and then wake up miserable! it's just a thought. And as you can probably tell this happened to me today and it was super annoying to me and I had to get it off my chest!

But anywho I' am getting so excited for my little trip! I get to see everyone and have Thanksgiviing with my family yeah! And then I am going to meet another family! So much fun to get to feel family stuff for a while. I miss it sometimes out here. I used to go see this really cute family all the time but now I live too far away to justify driving over an hour. Actually that not true I'd do the drive but I haven't called them in about a year I think it's been so I'm sort of shameful about the whole thing.

I really want to get motivated to start working out! I guess I just have to do it! my friend junior and I are going to do an all day run on Thanksgiving I think were gonna runn from Laie to Waialua. Actually it can't be thanksgiving day I work but the Saturday following. It's a marathon run! almost 26 miles I believe. I'm scarred but he says he runs slow and we'll stop five times. IT'S A DEATH RUN! But I need to do it. Actually I'm gonna go run right now and then I'm gonna swim before I go to work!!!1 I gotta go!!!

excited for the holidays?

I know this may sound hum-buggish but sometimes I don't get excited anymore! It makes me sad. I miss getting on top of the bookshelf with my mom and taking down the previous decorations wiping them down and arranging the new ones! man she had thousands of them. Looking back at all of the stuff I did no matter I feel like all of my childhood and young teen years flew by! I was a busy girl. I sit alone sometimes after work or on my day off and I don't have that many friends any more and I get so confused by time. How much there seems to be but it goes by so fast and I really wish that I knew how to enjoy it better sometimes. All I seem to worry about these days is money and bills. I am so excited to come home this holiday season to get a taste of the cold and a real bite in the armpit with it when I go back east to meet my boyfriends family. I want to smell the cold and the seasons and I wish I could have smelt october. You have no clue until you don't have it. The smell that is. And all the cute families around me make me miss my cute cute neices and nefews and I hate that I hardly know my brothers baby boy and I won't see the new one until may. so he'll be four months. Well I know that one day I will have my own and I will be closer to everyone and things will be wonderful. I can't wait to come home!!!!!! I get to see one of my best friends babies too! Alecia Adamson had Parker about two months ago and I will get to see him. So stoked!

I saw an old friend today. And it was not all that seeing old friends is supposed to be like. Claire. I met her when I came out in the summer for vacation and we were best friends. We surfed everyday and we met our boyfriends and everything was fun. But because of that friend ship I sort of hurt some other friends and a lot of things happened and changed in my life because of how influensed I was by her. You know your always taught to have good friends. And it doesn't mean that you will always find good friends in good places. You may find bad friends iin good places that seem to have the same life as you and they will be be there for you and really this particular friend turned out to turn me for a while to the wrong person. And i moved back to hawaii to be with her and she abandoned me. so sad. I thought she wanted me to come back so we could pick up where we left off but she ended up kicking me out and I was literally on the beach for a night! no one has ever known this! so don't tell! But I was taken in by some great people and they really helped me out. I was to commited to living on my own away from home that I couldn't go home so I stuck it out and now look at me! I have a great job I put myself through school I visit home and pay for my own vacations and I bought a brand new car and I pay rent and I sometimes look back and I'm thankful to her for ditching me. So when I saw her today I didn't have any of the old hatful feelings. I just felt nothing but memories of her. I have no interest in haging out with her but I would like to say out loud Thank you Claire! You suck!

But anyways back to the holidays. One day I am going to have all the decorations that sit all year long and then I bust 'em out and decorate like crazy in my beautiful home some where. Happy Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas!