I know I am so lame!

It's been over a month and I havent blogged anything! how sad. But Things are going well i suppose. I had a really wonderful trip home to see my family and I met my wonderful boyfriends family and they were awesome! And now it's Christmas eve and I am excited. I do wish I was home with my family though. But I'll see them soon I hope. Anyways I am gonna go rest I worked hard today and I have to work hard tomorrow.

Ju Jitsu!

I went to Ju Jitsu class last night and it was so fun!!! I'm pretty fighsty! haha. But man I am sore! Plus Yesterday I went surfing with Bopper and Jim at "the spot" and it sucked! Kicked my butt, scary, huge not my favorite day in the water. I paddled like crazy toget out passed the mean shore break and then trying to get into these waves was impossible! I need a new surf board is my problem. Thats what I asked bopper for Christmas! beside the fact that I'm going to PA with him and he's gonna take care of me there, I feel like I'm so needy sometimes! I think I'm too independent sometimes and It's good to let someone do things for you.

So I got this client at the spa. She's has a ton of health problems, She had a Brain Tumor, Has a metal bar replacing her Rt. Femur from a car accident, Arthritis in her hip, And Sciatica.!!!! She's a mess. Plus she has vicodine when she wants it and I think she's been on pain meds since the cancer so maybe thirty + yrs on pain meds. But she absolutley loves me! I guess she's been coming to the spa for years and she's been with all the therapists. But I am the only one that she's ever requested to have a second time! And not just one more but I believe she booked seven more with me for the remainder of her trip which is up to the day before my trip! And so that means my prayers were answered! She gets a two hour hot stone massage Which is already $240 bucks! And she tips me on top! Today it was 35 extra! Do the math! 8 massages! times 300! She's loaded! And she doesn't just get massages she gets her hair done and nails and pedicures, waxing! and a facial! She's awesome! That's how I'd spend my money if I had tons of it too! Well first I'd take care of my debt and go to nursing school! But then It would be Spa day four times a month. And she was a high school french teacher?? for 24 years half at two different schools. Maybe the Ten year thing? But she told me she thinks I should be a doctor! And I told her I want to go to nursing school I just can't work and Afford it . Maybe she'll hook me up one day! She's already told me she's coming back in April for a month and She's going to book me up again! Such a blessing. But her massages are not easy! I have to help her every step of the way due to all of the health problems she needs a wheel chair right now and then a walker for short distances. But I help pick her legs up on the table and I undress her and the last two massages she's needed to go to the bathroom half way through! So I have to redress her then undress her again. And she's not a small woman like 68 yrs old , and she's in a lot of pain too. But we are going to get her using only the walker by the end of her trip I told her. I love working with a repeat client like this. Cause I see real results from something that I do with my hands! I feel very blessed to have this talent of healing and helping people feel better. Anyways I love her already and I can't wait to she her again.

Hey let me know what you think of my blog Janelly! I've been working hard on it lately. It's what I do on my days off! haha.

Why !

How come some mornings you wake up and you are in a good mood and then others you wake up in a bad mood? And then even sometimes I wake uo happy and someone makes me mad with just a look or an unspoken word that I want or any of thise rediculous reasons? I don't know if anyone out there that may happen to read this knows anything about dreams and what happens to our mind and mood while we sleep but I'd love to know why I go to sleep super happy and then wake up miserable! it's just a thought. And as you can probably tell this happened to me today and it was super annoying to me and I had to get it off my chest!

But anywho I' am getting so excited for my little trip! I get to see everyone and have Thanksgiviing with my family yeah! And then I am going to meet another family! So much fun to get to feel family stuff for a while. I miss it sometimes out here. I used to go see this really cute family all the time but now I live too far away to justify driving over an hour. Actually that not true I'd do the drive but I haven't called them in about a year I think it's been so I'm sort of shameful about the whole thing.

I really want to get motivated to start working out! I guess I just have to do it! my friend junior and I are going to do an all day run on Thanksgiving I think were gonna runn from Laie to Waialua. Actually it can't be thanksgiving day I work but the Saturday following. It's a marathon run! almost 26 miles I believe. I'm scarred but he says he runs slow and we'll stop five times. IT'S A DEATH RUN! But I need to do it. Actually I'm gonna go run right now and then I'm gonna swim before I go to work!!!1 I gotta go!!!

excited for the holidays?

I know this may sound hum-buggish but sometimes I don't get excited anymore! It makes me sad. I miss getting on top of the bookshelf with my mom and taking down the previous decorations wiping them down and arranging the new ones! man she had thousands of them. Looking back at all of the stuff I did no matter I feel like all of my childhood and young teen years flew by! I was a busy girl. I sit alone sometimes after work or on my day off and I don't have that many friends any more and I get so confused by time. How much there seems to be but it goes by so fast and I really wish that I knew how to enjoy it better sometimes. All I seem to worry about these days is money and bills. I am so excited to come home this holiday season to get a taste of the cold and a real bite in the armpit with it when I go back east to meet my boyfriends family. I want to smell the cold and the seasons and I wish I could have smelt october. You have no clue until you don't have it. The smell that is. And all the cute families around me make me miss my cute cute neices and nefews and I hate that I hardly know my brothers baby boy and I won't see the new one until may. so he'll be four months. Well I know that one day I will have my own and I will be closer to everyone and things will be wonderful. I can't wait to come home!!!!!! I get to see one of my best friends babies too! Alecia Adamson had Parker about two months ago and I will get to see him. So stoked!

I saw an old friend today. And it was not all that seeing old friends is supposed to be like. Claire. I met her when I came out in the summer for vacation and we were best friends. We surfed everyday and we met our boyfriends and everything was fun. But because of that friend ship I sort of hurt some other friends and a lot of things happened and changed in my life because of how influensed I was by her. You know your always taught to have good friends. And it doesn't mean that you will always find good friends in good places. You may find bad friends iin good places that seem to have the same life as you and they will be be there for you and really this particular friend turned out to turn me for a while to the wrong person. And i moved back to hawaii to be with her and she abandoned me. so sad. I thought she wanted me to come back so we could pick up where we left off but she ended up kicking me out and I was literally on the beach for a night! no one has ever known this! so don't tell! But I was taken in by some great people and they really helped me out. I was to commited to living on my own away from home that I couldn't go home so I stuck it out and now look at me! I have a great job I put myself through school I visit home and pay for my own vacations and I bought a brand new car and I pay rent and I sometimes look back and I'm thankful to her for ditching me. So when I saw her today I didn't have any of the old hatful feelings. I just felt nothing but memories of her. I have no interest in haging out with her but I would like to say out loud Thank you Claire! You suck!

But anyways back to the holidays. One day I am going to have all the decorations that sit all year long and then I bust 'em out and decorate like crazy in my beautiful home some where. Happy Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas!

Belated Birthdays and Christmas!

Hey yall, (janel)haha,
Your probably the only one who reads this, haha, I was wondering about some gifts for the kids, do they have "Surfs up" the movie? yet. and what would you like? let me know.
bri

by the way

The dates on all of my dropshots photos are totally not right. Some of the pictures I took like two days a go said they were taken in 2005! haha.

hewp meeee!

This one is for Janel,
I love your blog and I want to do all the cute stuff too. Like the music and wishlist and all the URL stuff I don't know what I'm doing. call me when you have some time tonight and maybe you could help me. I know I should call you but for some reason your number isn't on my phone? ??? when you get a chance. Love ya
Brianna

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I hate when that happens!!!!!!

I just wrote a super long post and I went to publish and I wasn't connected, so I was going to copy paste and I freaking erased the whole thing!!!!! grrrrrrrrr. THAT BITES! Well here it goes again!

So today at work, Normally I do massages but today I played attendent. And believe me it will not happen often. I got to work around quarter to nine, and the dirty linen bin was OVER FLOWING, with sheets, wet towels, gross. So it takes me two trips to laundry to unload and seperate all these nasty wet, towels and sheets, plus i also do the salon linen, full of color and bleach and pineapple goo from the fancy pedis and manis, Janel, you'd love to work and this salon! And this is hard work this spa isn't a small one. so the other side of the job is all the clean linen. So I load this bin back up go up the elevator, down the hall and then down another elevator, (drama), and I get started on the folding. Mean time everyone is looking for something from me that they just can't do themselves like put more cups by the water. please, and this other girl even asked me if I would go check her clients scheduele. ??? and I did it. ?????? Well I get to lunch time and get a nice break with an all staff meeting that takes an hour, But when I come back I literally had to start all over again! a whole bin to unload and even more to pick up. plus I am keeping the locker rooms for the men and women clean and the fitness room too! But tomorrow I am back to massages I think I have like six tomorow! Wedding parties are so demanding all these drama brides and maids of honor need to chill out. I will be calm and cool at my wedding. none of this I'm more special than you crap. Everyone is not coming to your wedding so some people are still just living and doing there jobs. I have no clue where that just came from.

More exciting news, I am saving money for a super exciting trip. I am actually going to make it home around Christmas time this year! well closer to thanksgiving but. I am actually coming home on the day that I moved to Hawaii two years ago November 28 and then I will leave again two weeks later. haha. Actually one becasue the second half of my trip I will be visiting Waynnesburg Pennsylvania! I am going to meet Bopper's family. should be exciting. I may get to go deer hunting too. ?! haha funny story, my friend that is also from there that used to live in Hawaii heard I was coming to go hunt and he was like, "DON'T GIVE THAT GIRL A GUN!" haha so funny but he'd better run for the hills. ha.

Well i must get some sleep before tomorrow. Massage can be extremely draining and I've been so tight and sore lately. I need to get like a five hour massage, just keep bringing in different therapists. I need to do some yoga and eat better. Any one out there have some advice for modivation other than feeling better? haha. well now that I rewrote this whole thing I am going to do some visual dream surfing so I do good tomorrow, before I go to work. Aloha.

Winter is here

Finally the waves are here I am so stoked! Although it's a bit frustrating because I am not quite good enough yet to really get out in the big water, so I watch the big swells roll through and I go the day after when it's a LOT smaller.

Learning how to use this thing!

I'm not quite sure who I'm going to be telling my life to and things about my self that are very personal. I just hope that no one will take advantage of the things I say. I don't want to be judged because I feel like I am enough already in my life. Well maybe I just judge myself too much and lie to everyone else. This is not good. I feel very exposed by writting on this thing but due to lack of people to talk to I guess this is what I am resorting to.