What's going on?

Well, I am probably the worst blogger ever, I never write or post and I've been bad at making phone calls as well. But here's a mini update, I'm gonna go and write on the family blog in a minute. So I'm trying to be a lot more healthy and fit. I went to an abs class yesterday and I can feel all my obliques and serattus muscles everytime I move. The class is called Bobbies Bodies, She's like a drill sargent she yells at us and startles us so bad sometimes you're scarred she might call out your name if you don't step it up. Bopper and I walked on the beach for a mile and got a nice leg work out in the sand for a bit. So I'm working out! yeah! trying to eat better. It's really hard when your poor and pizza is more affordable than spinach and organic food and . Really I think we are just in a bad eating habit. We need to eat more veggies and less meat. I really try and eat as vegitarian as possible. After ready the book Skinny B***h (censored) I never want to eat unhealthy but it's like I have to re-read it to keep myself in check. But as long as we make good choices everyday that's progress
Oh yeah I got my hair cut! it really cute. it's a bob that sits on my shoulders and flips out with really nice highlights and a coffee colored brown for most of it, I style it later and load a picture.
I'm still working on getting motivated to get a private massage and esthetics clientele, it just takes time and thought. Well Maybe I'll go get cracking on that! Love yall!

DONTCHA KNOW!

I am in MINNESOTA! Quite fun actually. and it was really nice to get away from all the drama of my eviction. Yup lame lame lame I had to move out of my super cute house that I just gone done painting and decorating and all that crap. I had to move because the loser that I was subleting from wasn't paying the rent to the land lords. ASSHOLE! sorry for the emphasis! but I got lucky and I moved into a new place two days before I came on vacation but at least my stuff is somewhere and safe. I was really stressed out and weepy for a while but Bopper was really helpful and suportive and I couldn't have done it with out him and all of our friends that helped out. Trucks and storage and lifting of furnature. I was such a mess. But I am going to try and get my deposit back amlicably from the loser and if not I'm going to small claims court and getting ALL my money back! so for his sake he'd better just give me the $800 or I'll be asking for the full $2200 he stole! I'm being nice to this dick! I can't believe it! Any who. like I said it's nice to be away to regroup and refocus on school. I wasn't all there last week but I only have 6 weeks left after I get home!
I'll be right back!

I'm gonna be better at Bloging!

I know I know I'm terrible. I never write anything. I think that I talk about all my issues so much with so many friend here that I get it all out before I come and vent on my blog. I guess I feel like that is what a blog is. Venting space. Whether it's great news or bad someones got something fun to tell and they haven't told enough people or anyone at all. I just avoid the computer because I get sucked into typing any clicking around for HOURS! And I just don't have that time to kill sometimes!
Especially since I am in School! I don't know if you all know but I am becoming an esthetician! I go to a school called Makana Academy. www.makanaacademy.com . Check it out! But I am having so much fun. I am learning facials, waxing, make-up, medical esthetics (chemical peels and microdermabrasion) stuff like that. But it's the best program. Only being 15 weeks it's just like a mini skirt. Long enough to cover the subject but short enough to keep you interested! haha. Only I am into this one for life! With my massage license I think with a couple years experience I'll be set to go on opening my own spa. I have tonz of friends that want to do it here, but I can't quite settle on it just yet. I have a few things I have to do before I can feel content standing still. but it'll come one day. I am still pationate about music for all those wondering I'm just being 22 and killing time till the judges will respect me. I have how they bash on the youngins but they are right, when your 21 and not commited to anything yet, you may just need some time! So maybe this summer I can sneak away to an American Idol Audition. they're coming up. But I do have my Survivor Application all filled out too. I just need to make a video. Well, E Ho Mai Na Kapuna O' Hawai'i Aloha Eh!
Bri~

Bad News!

I have some yucky news! So with the rising cost of gas as we all know sucks! I don't think I am going to make it home in May. Which I am so upset about. Plus being out of work from my stupid arm sprain I can't make as much money right now. . The tickets are seriously over eight hundred dollars! And Bopper and I can't afford that. What we may do is in August for our second Anniversary were already planning a trip to Las Vegas with some friends that have this time share deal and maybe we can drive to Arizona afterwards and visit then. I know this sucks for everyone that was itchin' to meet Bops but I promise we will get there. For now I'm just so stoked on my house. I think I want to do interiour design at some point in my life . O kay so here is a spur of the moment life plan.

Finish playing in Hawaii maybe another year or two,
Move to somewhere where Bopper can get a better chef job hopefully CALIFORNIA,
mostly because I never want to not be able to surf everyday if I want to,
He'll probably go to culinary school there and I want to go to design school and I want to get a singing agent at the same time, Sing to make money while I'm in school.
Then After I become a celebrity I make millions of dollars and pay for Bopper to open his own Retaurant that I will Also manage and work at because I want to go to culinary school too. And I will also use my money to buy old houses and fix them and decorate and design and Sell And that is When I will make my real investment money and Bopper and I can travel with our kids all over the world and Learn about culture and Adventure!

Okay that sounds so crazy but so many thoughts entered my mind all at the same time I was flabergasted!
Well I am going to go by lunch and then go see a movie!

SOME STUFF

This is half of my backyard
Th computer corner
The front of the house
My sprained wristWaimea bay

My new room

My bathroom

The other side

My Living room painted Log Cabin (brown) Kitchen in Cranberry

The old Living room

Old bedroom
Old Bathroom
The other side

So I moved into a new place that I am very excited about. I have worked very hard to make it nice and my own space! I love it. Bopper and I put some hard work in But I definately did more. I stayed up all night painting and Got the whole thing pretty much done. I did my own head board shabby chic, and I organized everything. luckily I had a little accident at the company party last Thursday and sprained my wrist, got some much needed time off and some time to work on my place. I do miss work though, I went to a meeting yesterday and stayed like two hours longer just because I missed being there. I really love my job. So I can't wait for the sprain to heal. Oh I can't describe how glad I am to not have roommates! I've had over thrity roommates since High School maybe more, so I think I put in my time. I think I am the hard one to live with. Sorry Alecia and Brit for that crappy summer, :( . Oh and I got my taxes back I got like $800 back I was happy with that. I was going to have to pay that amount when I went to H& R Block. They suck. Janelly, I loved the Office Bopper and I are huge fans, I do miss 24 Right now thoug. AI was really good too. I finally got cable again so I am back in the loop. But I need to go I have some errand and a bunch of bills to pay!

Just like the others,

Just like all previous New Year Resolutions! I have slacked. I am so sorry Janel I know you Are busy so blogging is a great way to keep track. I just get lazy. I have been watching Survivor Seasons and I get brainwashed. I don't have TV right now so I don't see all the cool shows. But I am getting it soon. I have to watch The Office when it starts airing. But What blessing am I suposed to be on right now? I think Like #41 So I have Six to do!
1.(46)Education
2.(45)Passion For my Job
3.(44)Being an American
4.(43)Ability to Relax
5.(42)Love of Learning
6.(41)Flexible Personality
Okay so those All add up to...
I am so glad that I have my job and I had the motivation to take the bus everyday to downtown Oahu from the North Shore,(alecia and brittany know it can suck), But I was able to study and get things done. I am definately a planner but I don't get High strung like some people so I know to take a deep breath and say a little prayer and my day will turn around. It's really a blessing to be able to do this. Plus I deal with all sorts of people, as we all do, We all have different views on the world and opinions of how things should be done but I listen to all my friends and collegues and we are adults. And I am so greatful I am an American, Even though I hate the conspiracies of our leaders and The greed that runs The Powerhouse Called Washington D.C. I am still great ful to be in this country. All the illegals that are in fear everyday and Even those with legal visas and green cards still hold fear in the back of their mind that they may be deported or "caught" or told on by a hater. I am just thankful for that abscense of fear.
I' m not sure if that all made sense but whatever. I tried. And now I am "caught up" six weeks late but current. haha.

So I colored my hair. I wanted some red in it to make it stand out, and oh boy is it! Big 'ol rED/Pink/maroon streaks. But I like it after a couple of days. I thought I would get in trouble at work today but my boss just told me that she liked it and gave me a really nice present. She said I work really hard and I deserved it. She got me this cool Eminence thing. It's a tube of seven different products. Which is so awesome. If she's trying to make me like her it's totally working. Even though I already liked her. But now, I know this is a little disturbing, I think she likes me. She is a lesbian! eeeew. But she's married so she shouldn't be flirting like this! haha J/K I really hope shes not. But she keep doing nice things for me and she gave me a really good personal review and I don't know whats going on. I'll just say that she is really nice and Appreciates all that I do at my job.

I am also looking into a new place to live. I think it may happen soon But I have to wait on several other people to do their thing before it gets around to me.
Bopper and I can't wait to come home for a visit! He's going to go to PA for ten days and then come to Az for like 5 It's going to be awesome! I hope everyone in the family does a really nice job of welcoming him and making him feel appreciated, Like we have all done for everyone else. I don't want any negative energy puking on this very special moment for us. We are both nervous and excited as it is so I trust everyone to treat us with the same repect we've all been treated, Except for Kristy. She was fake and kinda put it on herself. But I don't like the way we have talked about her behind her back since the day she became Jasons girlfriend. I truly believe that things could have been different for them if we could have exercised our ability to use the law or attraction. aka"the secret". So once again I know everyone will be kind and loving toward bopper. I love him and I know that you all love me and will see what a great man he is and how imoprtant he is to me. So ahead of time, THANKS! Okay now I am going to take a nap because I did five Easter Day Massages, and I didn't get to go to church and I wanted to and I'm a little cranky about that.
I hipe you all had a lovely day!
Happy Easter

fourty-seven/ v-day

My number fourty seven blessing of the year is my superficial things. I'm really greatful to have the things i need to keep me entertained and comfortable. I don;t know if I should really use that as a blessing but I'm gonna.

One thing I am very ungrateful for right now is my cold! I feel terrible and I want to cry every time I cough. It sucks. But oh well. I feel bad Valentines is tomorrow, I hope I feel better. I have to work a double shift too. lame. But it's alright cause Bopper works anyways. So at least I'll be at work with him.

Sometimes I really don't like 'ol V-day. I feel obligated to get a great gift but I really just don' t have the money so I feel like I'm not doing enough. but Bops knows I love him so what ever cupid I'm not spending any money on you this year.

LATE #48

#48 , So I'm a little late,
but my number 48 blessing is going to be Hawaii. I have learned so much out here, and it really has been a blessing to me. But unfortunately it is very far from home and I really wish everyone would just move out here and be with me. Any ways I am not in the biggest writting mood so I am gonna have to keep this one short.

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count your blessings

So I am so excited! My #49 blessing is that Bopper is so understanding and sweet. And not just that he is so in live with me! We are going to go to church together tomorrow morning! He's getting his clothes ready now and I am so wow excited!!! Pray for me Janel! But that is definately my blessing for today!

I went out to dinner tonight with a couple of friends from work and it was so nice to sit and talk to some new friends and to hear some funny stories! And I learned that I am not as wierd as I thought I was. I don't have that many close friends anymore so I don't get to hear a lot of similar situations to my own when it comes to dating and my life out here in Hawaii is hard to compare to old friends and others. So it was nice to know that Iam in the same boat with a lot of people.
Anywho, I need some sleep!
Aloha

My 52 Blessings

So I totally love that idea of a blessing per week for the whole year. Cause today I actually journaled an entry today to myself. Just giving a shout out to me for me. A very positive thing to do I might add. SItting down a writing to yourself about how much you love yourself and reminding yourself of who you are and of all of your qualities really makes you feel more positive.

So my number #52 blessing is going to be my love for journaling. I am very fortunate to enjoy this. Some people don't and it is kind of sad. I will always have a small door to open and look back and reflect on different times in my life because I write quite a bit of my life down.

And since it is already the 20th of January, we are two weeks behind on our 52 weeks.

#51 My job. I worked very hard to get to where I am. And there is still so much to be accomplished. When I moved to Hawaii I had this dream of being a bum and working as who knows! But I am blessed that I got the courage and the determination to get on the stupid bus every morning and take a two hour comute to school. And the to take it back and go straight to work as a busser in a restraunt for Seven months! Until I became a waitress for the last three months. (Which is when I met Bops!) The Job I have now is the one I said to myself when I started school, and my busser job, Brianna! I want to get my massage therapy liscence and transfer to the spa and Turtle Bay Resort! And look at me Two years and like three months later! Go Job!

#50 My health. Obviously my blessings are in no specific order, cause this would be close to the top, But I have been so blessed, to always have good health. Besides a cold every winter and a few strep throghts and a few little sufing accidents, I have been so lucky to not have any serious health obsticles or injuries in my life. But I am sure that if I did, knock on wood, I would be able to over come the obsticles and still be who I am.

So there are my first three, instalments. I can't wait to really take a look at all of my blessings throughout the year, and see how life will change and grow!

Thanks Janel!

happy!

I love going to the gym. It makes me so happy. And you know what else makes me happy, Eating and Sleeping. Bopper says as long as he keeps me fed and I sleep good he has a happy girlfriend. haha. But I am so glad I went to the gym. I did a yoga class that was kind of lame but then I had a really fun hip hop dance class. I got the steps and had a lot of fun. The teacher was really fun too. Really pretty, but really heavy. At first I was kinda judgemental, but I slapped myself for that, and I was suprised how well she taught! And she was very confident. I had fun, I'll probably go every week now. And Bopper and I are going tomorrow morning and I am going to the Kick Boxing class. Unfortunately I haven't been going to Jujitsu because I am nervous I'll get hurt and I need my whole body for my job. Massage Therapists kind of need unbroken arms and legs. And I just heard so many scarry stories about injuries, I was a bit freaked out. But I bought the stupid uniform so I am eventually going to get into something that needs a gi when I am not a working therapist. Maybe just karate. I know I am going to get my kids in it if I can. It's such a cool thing to know how to do. Well I'm gonna sleepies now!

I hate writing a title!

I don't know why but I am so cranky today. Bopper called me a spoiled brat this morning and I have not recovered from it! I think it is so rude to say that! I guess on a some (alot) of levels I am really spoiled and I know that I can be a pain but still! But He's just a bit cranky too because he's stopped drinking. Which is really good, but I think he get a bit moodier now when I have to nag a little to remind him. But I am so proud of him for coming to me and owning up to his problem and telling me that he wanted to stop. He's doing really well with it so far. Well Iam going to go apologize and make things all better.

Lazy Breezy in Hawaii!!!

So I am the worst. It's been weeks since I updated. But Janelly you've been so good! Life looks like so much fun for you and all the kids. You have such a cute family and you are so fun and creative! My latest news is that I got the carpets cleaned in my gross apartment. Well Not so gross anymore! I cleaned it up pretty good but I can't wait to not have roommates and take a break and live alone. Well then I guess the kids will come so then I'll have to deal with it all over again. At least I've had some practice with the patience, But I;ll be able to yell at my kids and make them put there own crap away. Can't do that so much with roommates! haha. But things are good otherwise.

Work has been crazy busy and I'm afraid I got a little burned. But I had Wednesday off and Today. Plus I treated myself to a massage and a facial on Thursday. Those were nice. I worked over 70 hours last payperiod (two weeks) and I think in that I did 35+ massages. So I was due for one. But it'll be worth it since I didn't get paid while I was out of town! Yeah I have less that one hundred dollars in my account right now. it's pretty much the worst feeling thinking checks are gonna bounce if I don't deposit my check on Monday! but I am gonna have to run because the bank closes at 4 and I don't finish till 3! and I live 30 min away but traffic can add 20 min! it's gonna be a close call.

You'll bee excited about this one. Bopper and I were talking about what we want in our relationship and I expressed how I want to move home really bad. And he's willing to come with me! He wants to visit for sure first but were coming in May so it'll still be cool right? And then we probably won't come till after the summer so he won't have to feel it. But I keep those thoughts to myself. He hates the heat. he sweats way too much! But just that we are talking about the " m" word makes me so happy. But he also said give him some time before he "runs off to become a mormon" haha. I thought it was cute. But he is really showing an effort to be better and start learning. I don't think that process can really happen till were on the mainland. It's just too hard here. I know that sound lame but it's true. The spirit that I felt when I was home in Thatcher is so much different than out here.

More news you are going to love Janelly! I have been starting up again on singing. I really want to get back to the mainland so I can get an agent and start getting serious about it! yeah! I'll write more on this later.

Well I'm going to sleepies because unfortunately I work tomorrow. Have a nice Sunday. And say Hi to the Kiddies for me. oh and did Mark like hiss candy I brought?
goodnight.
Breezy